Monday, July 23, 2007
10:14 PM
[ Marriage ]
Finally i had something to blog about.. At the same time theres something i notice.. I noticed that all my post is all about me mostly.. Quite bored wor.. loLZ~ Anyways lets talk about marriage..
This topic came in when im having a conversation at dinner todae.. My aunt came by fer dinner and happen to ask me whether im single or not and whether im still a virgin.. The conversation became a little awkward as my mom is sitting right beside me on the dining table.. -.-||
The worst part is i said im not a virgin and she replied " So when did you lost it? "
Jeez.. Thats getting annoying.. loLZ~ She cant expect me to say " Oh.. i lost it when im walking home.." Right? Shagg.. i avoided and chose not to answer coz my mom keep staring at me through out dinner which made me really uneasy..
Anyways Aunt said something about buying houses or selling fer his son which is my cousin and kept mentioning the word marriage.. So it conclude that my cousin which is the same age as me going to be married soon enough.. Thats a real headache..
Actually they arent going to get married soon, its just that aunt starts to 'plan' now for cousin marriage.. And fer me i felt its way too early to start 'planning' now..
Dont know why the world seems to left me out, i cant catch up with it.. Gu is in tekong we both met and chatted when he came out.. He said that the world is changing unknowingly and he felt that he had lost contact with the world when hes inside.. And we were chatting about mp3 player.. But to me i felt the same as Gu wor.. Felt that maybe i chose to left the world out ba.. LOLZ~ Anyways i know that im stuck in the house long enough to change the world.. so what will be will be ba..
I dont even see any char bor in my life, dont even talk about marriage.. But what if im in those shoes? Maybe i should just hang myself or run away ba.. Then i will be listed as the "Runaway Groom" of the year.. LOLZ~ Peace Out~ And Vin.. Im still counting the daes to come >.<~~~~
Sunday, July 08, 2007
11:24 AM
[ My dad piss on me.. ]
Its Sunday.. again.. Cloudy skies and humid day.. Weather like this can cook an egg on an concrete floor.. Guess the siren at tekong rang again.. My room stinks of fish cause i blog right after i came home..
Yes i dont like my dad but that dislike turn into hate recently.. Never know why.. Its bad to curse yer dad from behind.. But my dad is one fucking selfish bastard whom i hate more and more..
He is selfish.. Why? Cause all he cares is himself alone..
Me: " Oie i wanna go home, send me home..."
Dad: "Oh.. you meeting someone later?"
Me: "I want to go home.."
Dad: "wah.. So early and you wanna go home already? Later then go home."
Me: " I go liaoz.."
Then i went home straight.. This situation happens almost every week end and all i did is diam diam and listen to what he says.. Its a small matter to some of you but if you were like me you will do the same too..
Cause almost every weekend parents always quarrel in the market.. Then this morning they had a fight then two hours later another fight and then after an hour fight again.. FUCK IT MANZ.. I cannot take that shit anymore so i just went home..
I remember when i was in Secondary sch after 10.30 i will be home then slowly it turns 11.00 and then 11.30.. I really dont mind staying till 11.30 or even 12.. But the fight between them is just so fucking unbearable that i have to leave that stinking piece of crappy shit hole immediately..
I sure do know my dad stupid attitude.. When i ask him fer cash he gives me the stupid look and keeps asking this and that what the fuck? Brother.. 10 20 bucks why ask so much? Somemore 20 bucks cant even last the whole day fer me..
When its time to ask him fer my pay.. He kept pushing away trying to pay me back other day.. Although sometimes he forgets i dont blame him.. But cant he be more responsible? Haiz.. I hate to ask him fer money so i rather werk fer him..
The worst part is his kindness of repay is like buy you food and lots of food.. Food food food.. My foot ar.. Buy me a car la or even better still buy me something i can use.. I will feel better sia..
How come he cannot be considerate and think of others ner? Like i think of my parents my mom and my "i dont quite like" dad.. Cause i dont want them to be tired so i help them in any way i can..
Considerate as in "Hey, are you tired? Come on i'll give you a ride home.."
Woah! i never heard that from him like since i was born? I think i must be dreaming..
Hes selfish and keeps earning money and drags people to werk fer him.. So what if he pays the bills and even pay people to werk fer him like me and mom?
Come on be realistic hes so sick man!!! Coz he never thought of
"Hmmm.. Ive got a great kid and a good wife, maybe i will give them abit more this month or maybe we all can have a break this weekend and go out as a family!"
NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
REAL HIM : " WTF? This month's revenue are getting down.. Shit! got to pay my stupid kid and blood sucking wife again.. How i wish i can take a break and leave my job fer my wife and kids.. Guess we cant get free for everything dont we?"
I agree that money is everything.. Its the first thing in life for all of us.. But somethings just cant be subsitute with money alone.. Thats why i dont trust money coz its the devil! The currency fer Saturn.. Yes let us all go into the church and pray hard while we starve ourselves to death.. Shagg.. What a day to start the ball rolling with.. Guess i will just leave home early ba.. Felt so sick staying here..
Friday, July 06, 2007
2:48 AM
[ Death.. ]
I woke up early todae and went to pray to my aunt at the temple. Never expect anything except a normal trip there. So i get on my dad's bike and there we go.. Upon reaching a junction, we almost had an accident when one of the cars from afar was trying to beat the traffic lights.. Mysterious driver was driving about 70km/h and dad was halfway through a right turn.. I was expecting that farker to stop but to my god farking damn surprise the car did not stop!
Whats worst is that that farker did not even horn fer a warning which is = That farker WAS going after someones blood.. What shrunk my balls is that when i saw that the car was speeding so fast till the hood is about 4 inches away from my knee cap following a quick right turn.. Haiz.. My dad's jitao qew from that freakin death show sia..
Nothing came to my mind even im 4 inches away from death.. I cant do anything except to watch the car comes closer and closer to me.. LOLZ~ i dont even bother to shout or wave sia.. I guess when im rammed by a car, i will sigh and reply "Oh well~ Shit happens sometime ba.."
Thursday, June 28, 2007
7:53 PM
[A Day Of Disappointment]
Everyday is very the same day for me everyday.. My life is shut away from the world outside my doorsteps thankfully i have my friends to guide me along my life.. Whether in the past or present my friends are getting getting lesser each day.. And just todae i just lost another friend, a nice friend.. I guess no one will really care about its absence or not ba.. Anyways its just another story, to me i dont bother it much too..
Here comes the boring part.. Disappointed each and everyday.. rather then hoping, i rather give up.. With you or not life still have to go on, the sad part is you just destroyed the nice sand castle that we've built right before you go.. Guess theres no point holding back since nothing matters to you anymore..
I guess everything thing is gone and gone means it will never be back again, let us all pretend and pretend we shall.. Who shall be the pretenders and who shall be pretending? Its too vague.. too vague to see whats right and whats wrong.. I guess only the pretending will know the answer..
Well.. I dont even know what im writing too.. All ive know is whats done cant be undone and the solution is nothing except to pretend.. Let us all pretend that no ones is there, pretend you never knew anyone and pretend you are my friend which had already gone..
Maybe sometime you may think that " I had enough! Its time that im going to do something just for myself and myself alone!".. Doing things for yourself is right but doing it in the expense of hurting others is definately wrong.. To me wrong is wrong and right is right..
Eg: I dont have money i want money and i want it now! Do you kill people for money or you work for it?
Maybe it isnt right for anyone to reprimand people of thier mistakes but God made every one of us with one big brain and two ears so that we can hear what others sae and think about it.. One mouth is to talk less and ten fingers to type more! Anyways im sick of it and im giving up so dont bother to think about it coz no one will bother too..
*Trying to understand one person is hard but trying to understand a whole bunch of people is much much much harder.. Whatever you plan to do, never be a burden to others, never let others worry and never let people around you get hurt..
Till the end its still spare a thought fer others and stop being selfish..
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
12:14 AM
[Movies]
Skies dark and clouds are red, it shows signs of raining in the night.. The night tonight seems to be cooler than any other nights this month.. Roads were empty streets were bright, it just look the same every night..
Its been awhile ever since i stopped schooling, the world of An Zai is all about slacking and rotting.. Maybe An Zai isnt that zai anymore le.. Anyways lets cut the crappy shiat and get down to business LOLZ~..
Yep im downloading tons of movies and they are really really really nice.. Let me list some out..
The Rock
Face/Off
Gladiator
Forrest Gump (Inspiring movie)
Vanilla Sky
A beautiful mind (Inspiring Movie)
Casablanca (Monochrome movie)
Twister
Red Planet
Armageddon
Con Air
Titanic? (Cant remember much abt it though)
Black Hawk Down
Enemies At the Gate
Shallow Hal
Along Came Polly
WaterWorld
Far & Away
Jerry Maguire (Show me the money LOLZ~)
*AND MUCH MUCH MORE!!!
Okie lets stop around here coz its raining and i need to shut all the windows loLZ~..
Im telling you this is really going to be a very very very long blog muahahahahaha..
Movies are really one of the greatest invention that mankind had ever made.. With a good actor and a good script, it can really turn the globe upside down!! We can too learn alot from movies and they are also influencial as well.. Just simply Amazing!
Had a thought while im smoking and trying to phase into words but it took a little longer then i thought loLZ~..
Thoughts:
In Life theres bound to be choice to be made.. Some choices are just straight forward such as a yes or a no. But once in a while there will be a major decision to be made, a deadly choice that could affect ones life.. When that time comes what will you do? Lets put it into an example..
If one fine day 2 person comes into your life and they are both very important to you and yes both love you just as much.. Although there are differences between them but the love they show you are just as heavy.. Then so coincidently they happen to know their rivals exist and there comes the choice of your life, a deadly choice that could change one life or another.. Who will you choose? At this point of time you are definately confuse.. The love they shows are the same you can feel it, so it will have to be base on characteristics and one is naughty and the other is good.. They both have their own way of living and style and you like the both of them as the way they are.. But you just cant have the good of both worlds..
Eventually or maybe you will come to a conclusion of a 'third' choice.. The choice of not choosing either one of them... It may sound nice but can you resist the temptation IF one of them care for you everydae? Knock on yer door just to ask you whether you had yer lunch or just to check up on you.. Will you still hold on to your 'third' choice? The answer is of coz you will choose the nicer one right? Who cares about the third choice when the right choice is in front of you.. Yes you will feel bad and sorry for the naughty one and theres just something going on in yer heart which you just cant bear to part with but......... So in the end a choice had been made.. Its just like two big red juicy fuji apples, one is just right besides you while the other is on the table.. Will you reach out fer the nearer one or take a walk to the apple on the table? There you go, the choice had just been made..
In the huge vast of life there bound to be choices like this one, above all it just comes down to people themselves, as who can really do things for others without thinking about themselves?.. *Sigh* the world is just too selfish ba and the saddest thing is im one of them.. Its really farnie that i can compare major choices to a minor choice.. Im sure theres someone out there who does choose the third choice and really keep to his or hers decision and maybe choose something not advantageous to themself and they are the ones who does great things and im sure of it.. They do exist, believe it! For me i definately believe it, its just that i havent met those people yet.. If i do really meet these kind of people i hope that their benevolent acts of decision rubs off on me.. Peace Out~
Saturday, June 23, 2007
1:31 AM
[ Clear night sky ]
After days and hours of gaming finally took some time off and clear up whats suppose to be done ^.^.. Since i didnt blog fer a long time i decide to blog now.. loLZ~
Acutally i also dont know what to blog also.. These few daes havent gotten any real sleep dark circles getting darker and larger le..
Sianz.. Last nite i had a strange and scary dream.. Dreamt abt alone dont know where and found afew friends which i cant remember, then only think i can remember is the scene, scary dream about zombies and ghost around me.. Scary wor.. Dont know how come got this kind of dream..
Recently something caught me just before i sleep, and its a question and a sentence.. It goes like this..
"Theres alot of things i wanna tell and listen, somehow i feel that everything seems pointless now, cause the time had past so long that anyone could remember. Even theres a chance given, its still useless against time itself.."
Those words kept ringing in my ears every night before i fall asleep these daes.. Following on i had a crazy idea of what could ive done if i could go back in time..
Then the first stop will maybe 1965 ba.. Wannna see my mom and dad young face loLZ~.. Then it will be 1990 to see all my friends de face.. hehe.. Maybe at the final stop.. I will go to my life and save things that i will regret the most.. But on second thought i felt that its pointless as even you could save it once twice but could you save it forever? So lets just learn from our mistakes and try not to let it happen again ba..
*Seriously the same mistakes will definately occurs but its just so god damn hard to prevent it.. Thats why people keep making their same mistakes over and over again coz its just life and people do fall for it.. Maybe we should just learn keep learning from our mistakes and no more.. Even its the same mistake just keep learning and learning and repeating and repeating ba.. NiteZ
Thursday, June 14, 2007
1:56 PM
[ Faraway ]
After gu went off serving the country and suddenly i got alot of things to think abt.. Boring sia.. Todae weather is freaking burning and its like somewhere in the desert.. Now im downlaoding Diablo 2 to play.. I guess its nice to play game ba.. But the downloading i think it will take abt few daes ba.. At the mean time im rotting away and i can smell myself faraway.. LOLZ~
Its really time fer me to find a decent job liaoz.. But left 2 months nia find wad job ner? im really broke and bored.. Sianz..
I met a fortune teller yesterdae and he tell me to sleep 2 years then and when i wake up i will be rich.. mauahahahaahz.. Then i ask abt my future gf or wife and he sae thats a tough call, he sae she will be a someone with 2 moles on her face and in order to meet her i will have to sleep fer 20 years.. He also added that if i sleep 2 years wake up then my dream ger will be gone for good but if i sleep fer 20 years i get the ger but there goes my fortune..
Haiz.. What should i do ner? Should i sleep fer 20 years or 2 years near? Should i be rich ner? Should i gain happiness ner? Its really hard to choose sia.. Got to go bath liaoz buaiz
